People say, "Don't be afraid to be you..", but at times, I AM. I am utterly terrified at times that my flaws are too noticeable, too weird, too not acceptable. When I start to think things like this, I almost have to force myself to take a step back and realize I absolutely adore and love each and everyone one of my friends. My Beautiful friends, who accept me, for me. My friends who embrace my inner 'Protective Momma', ghettoness, high pitched laughter, weird thoughts of "would you rather", thunkins, loud talking, and sometimes emotional self.
At times though, you forget the ones that mean closest to you. We forget the importance they serve in your life, and how much they actually keep you rooted. To tell you the truth, I honestly do not know what I would be, or where I would be, without them...Thank you guys (you know who you are.)
Luckily, friends have been one of the few things that have been consistent in my life lately.It seems like things are slowly unraveling, and there is really not much I can do about it. Either that, or I tend to focus and stress on the negative aspects of things too much (which is true.) But hey, that's just me...but it is something that I have been working on lately. I completely envy people who remain positive about their life, no matter what. In a way, I feel selfish and ungrateful when I scowl and get emotional about the occurrences in the journey of my life. However, once again..it is something that I am slowly working on.
Off of this huge tangent, and back to contentment...I have had the urge to first, be completely OK with myself, love myself, and BE myself. Second, to start living my life more for Jesus...and doing things that I have always wanted to do. Things like, ride a camel, or make a huge sand castle, or bake a stranger a cake, or pay for someone's groceries, or have the satisfaction of making my own outfit..little things like that. It's time that I start to L I V E ....with no regrets, and let the wind of life flow through my hair. And let every moment I live
compliment my inner me.... It's time to start living.
At times though, you forget the ones that mean closest to you. We forget the importance they serve in your life, and how much they actually keep you rooted. To tell you the truth, I honestly do not know what I would be, or where I would be, without them...Thank you guys (you know who you are.)
Luckily, friends have been one of the few things that have been consistent in my life lately.It seems like things are slowly unraveling, and there is really not much I can do about it. Either that, or I tend to focus and stress on the negative aspects of things too much (which is true.) But hey, that's just me...but it is something that I have been working on lately. I completely envy people who remain positive about their life, no matter what. In a way, I feel selfish and ungrateful when I scowl and get emotional about the occurrences in the journey of my life. However, once again..it is something that I am slowly working on.
Off of this huge tangent, and back to contentment...I have had the urge to first, be completely OK with myself, love myself, and BE myself. Second, to start living my life more for Jesus...and doing things that I have always wanted to do. Things like, ride a camel, or make a huge sand castle, or bake a stranger a cake, or pay for someone's groceries, or have the satisfaction of making my own outfit..little things like that. It's time that I start to L I V E ....with no regrets, and let the wind of life flow through my hair. And let every moment I live
compliment my inner me.... It's time to start living.
Jesus, please help me to L O V E me.
