I remember one day, in my classroom in 4th grade I was sitting next to my best friend.
She was blonde, cute, skinny, pretty. As I was sitting next to her, I was comparing our legs in shorts.
My day was ruined, and I was completely devastated when I found that my legs were 2 inches bigger than hers.
From that day on, I was always aware of how I looked.
As I was sitting in front of the mirror this morning, putting my makeup on...I really examined myself.
This time, when I stared into my dirty mirror on my wall, I wasn't thinking to myself.."Oooh, I look cute today...Get it girl!"
This time, all I saw were my huge flaws, I thought to myself..
"I hate my fingers.
I hate my calves.
I hate my nose.
I hate that stupid scar under my lip.
I hate how long it takes my hair to grow."
Right then, I caught myself.
I caught myself being that "mean girl"who seemed to pick on everyone's flaws.
This time, I was the rude girl and the one who secretly wen't home and sobbed on her bed after hearing those remarks.
It then hit me, I am my worst enemy.
I am the only person who can allow myself to feel like I am not good enough.
I am the only person who can declare that I am having a "fat day", or a "bad hair day", or even a bad day in general.
I am the only person who can make myself think I am not good enough, skinny enough, or pretty enough.
After I caught myself doing that today, I remembered the verse 1Peter 3:3,4:
"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle
and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight."
This verse is now taped to my mirror.
So as I am getting ready in the morning, I remember that although I might not see beauty in the mirror, God always sees it in me.
